Friday, September 15, 2006
Yawnz
Yawnz... such a good weather and stuck in office. It is freaking cold and ... well let's just say it is a good day to hibernate.
After 9 months.. I am still clueless. I almost ... wanted to stick to this line til quite some time... but it seems like this job is getting on my nerves. Everything has to be recorded and plan in advance. I mean.. come on... I hate to record and plan. Yes.. I might be skiving at times... but .. nah.. not going to argue on this point. But seriously... I don't know what I want.... I tried applying for jobs that I want... but never once did I get it.. Sigh... must be my bad karma or simply I am lousy!
Yesterday..... well... talk to a friend.. and... well... just cried. The topic is none other than my singlehood. Why am I single.. Besides the point of SFUWA (Short Fat Ugly with Attitude), there is always this problem or issue in me that I never spelt out. None other than.... the stupid 'A' fellow. I cannot seem to move on since dunno how many years ago. I compare every guy with him. It doesn't seem fair but I cannot help it. After the conversation... I went digging out all the stuff... found a log (our conversation).. I just burst out crying while reading it. It just brings back everything...
I don't know what I am doing... what I want... and... what I have...
dun do this to yourself.. dun make yourself miserable over someone who dont even noe ure miserable. wads the point?
get over your own barrier first. then you can move on.. and there's somebody for everybody. cliche. but i believe its true..
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After 9 months.. I am still clueless. I almost ... wanted to stick to this line til quite some time... but it seems like this job is getting on my nerves. Everything has to be recorded and plan in advance. I mean.. come on... I hate to record and plan. Yes.. I might be skiving at times... but .. nah.. not going to argue on this point. But seriously... I don't know what I want.... I tried applying for jobs that I want... but never once did I get it.. Sigh... must be my bad karma or simply I am lousy!
Yesterday..... well... talk to a friend.. and... well... just cried. The topic is none other than my singlehood. Why am I single.. Besides the point of SFUWA (Short Fat Ugly with Attitude), there is always this problem or issue in me that I never spelt out. None other than.... the stupid 'A' fellow. I cannot seem to move on since dunno how many years ago. I compare every guy with him. It doesn't seem fair but I cannot help it. After the conversation... I went digging out all the stuff... found a log (our conversation).. I just burst out crying while reading it. It just brings back everything...
I don't know what I am doing... what I want... and... what I have...
dun do this to yourself.. dun make yourself miserable over someone who dont even noe ure miserable. wads the point?
get over your own barrier first. then you can move on.. and there's somebody for everybody. cliche. but i believe its true..
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