Monday, January 09, 2006
Finally
I can finally do whatever I want and say whatever I feel. It has been long. By the way just incase you are wondering why did I say the first sentence.. well... last time my EX will snoop in to read. Now... I do not give a fuck about it. Afterall... he is my EX!!!
I used to think that he might be different. Well guess I was wrong. He gave the most absurd excuse for a break up, which is he is moving to Russia and he feels that we cannot continue. Let me just explain. Both of us are having a long distance relationship. He is in France and I am in Singapore. Now... he is just proceeding to Russia. Does that make a difference in distance? To me... nope. Not much difference, I will still have to fly over and it will take more than 13 fucking hours or so. Anyway.. now it won't make any more fucking difference since it has ended.
Pissed... yes I am pissed... I am angry for being stupid in the first place. I mean why didn't I use my brain. Shouldn't even invested in so much emotions into me. And yes I am fucking upset too. Afterall we have been together like... 4 months to a year. Still... it will take some time to heal.
Those previous entry that I made... about me being upset and etc... most of the time I was alone. I mean what took me so long to realise that having a boyfriend is not like having a boyfriend. I cannot feel his love, cannot feel his presence and cannot have him by his side when I needed company most.
I can finally move on.. maybe when time comes... I will just follow them to Australia.
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I used to think that he might be different. Well guess I was wrong. He gave the most absurd excuse for a break up, which is he is moving to Russia and he feels that we cannot continue. Let me just explain. Both of us are having a long distance relationship. He is in France and I am in Singapore. Now... he is just proceeding to Russia. Does that make a difference in distance? To me... nope. Not much difference, I will still have to fly over and it will take more than 13 fucking hours or so. Anyway.. now it won't make any more fucking difference since it has ended.
Pissed... yes I am pissed... I am angry for being stupid in the first place. I mean why didn't I use my brain. Shouldn't even invested in so much emotions into me. And yes I am fucking upset too. Afterall we have been together like... 4 months to a year. Still... it will take some time to heal.
Those previous entry that I made... about me being upset and etc... most of the time I was alone. I mean what took me so long to realise that having a boyfriend is not like having a boyfriend. I cannot feel his love, cannot feel his presence and cannot have him by his side when I needed company most.
I can finally move on.. maybe when time comes... I will just follow them to Australia.
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