Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Once again...not in the right state of mind
It has been long since I last updated my blog.... partially due to the fact that I have a boyfriend who snoops around my stuff... I have just lost something called privacy ever since I got attached.
For those who did not know... yes I am attached. Even though I am in Germany... that does not account that I should have a German boyfriend. Well.. to solve the mystery of who he is.... he is a french. Average looking, lean and standing 1.84m. Yes... I am short and yes... he is super tall in comparison with me. I do not have any pictures of him yet as I have lost my fucking digital camera. Will take a picture of him to show you guys. A clue to how he looks like... the movie, transporter. That bald guy or the "handsome Rob" in Italian Job. If you are wondering about his name, address him as Laurent (Pronounce it without the 'R')
I can still recall the days of dreaming of having a boyfriend. Well.. now I got one... but it is so so different. I am not exactly happy, but I am trying to be happy. Contradiction? I have no clue to what I am doing right now as well. People are always saying those who are in loved are bliss. Am I truly bliss? I do not know. This relationship... is a mess. We are constantly having communication problems, either I am too stupid to comprehend his words or we can't communicate at all. Another factor that adds to the frustration is that both of us have big ego. (In case no one knows or unaware of... I HAVE A HUGE EGO. An ego of a man as well) He will never admit he is wrong and that I cannot be bothered to explain stuffs that people do not believe in me. At times... I cannot sense that he is in love with me.
Oh yah.. just came back from Paris... and yes I have yet to update about the amsterdam trip. These 2 can wait.. I will review it when I have the time. Discovered another side of him that I didn't like. Empty promises.. he is always giving empty promises. I am a person who simply dislike people who cannot keep to their promises. Maybe it is only me... If I promise someone something... I will normally keep to my end of that promise.. He... well... as I said empty promises. This is one major flaw of his that I cannot tolerate. I know it is hard to hold to the end of the bargain.. but if promises cannot be done... don't promise... it is like giving false hopes. Maybe this fault lies with all the guys in the world.
Think I will stop here for now... really very angry and simply have no words how to put down on this frustration. Will upate soon
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For those who did not know... yes I am attached. Even though I am in Germany... that does not account that I should have a German boyfriend. Well.. to solve the mystery of who he is.... he is a french. Average looking, lean and standing 1.84m. Yes... I am short and yes... he is super tall in comparison with me. I do not have any pictures of him yet as I have lost my fucking digital camera. Will take a picture of him to show you guys. A clue to how he looks like... the movie, transporter. That bald guy or the "handsome Rob" in Italian Job. If you are wondering about his name, address him as Laurent (Pronounce it without the 'R')
I can still recall the days of dreaming of having a boyfriend. Well.. now I got one... but it is so so different. I am not exactly happy, but I am trying to be happy. Contradiction? I have no clue to what I am doing right now as well. People are always saying those who are in loved are bliss. Am I truly bliss? I do not know. This relationship... is a mess. We are constantly having communication problems, either I am too stupid to comprehend his words or we can't communicate at all. Another factor that adds to the frustration is that both of us have big ego. (In case no one knows or unaware of... I HAVE A HUGE EGO. An ego of a man as well) He will never admit he is wrong and that I cannot be bothered to explain stuffs that people do not believe in me. At times... I cannot sense that he is in love with me.
Oh yah.. just came back from Paris... and yes I have yet to update about the amsterdam trip. These 2 can wait.. I will review it when I have the time. Discovered another side of him that I didn't like. Empty promises.. he is always giving empty promises. I am a person who simply dislike people who cannot keep to their promises. Maybe it is only me... If I promise someone something... I will normally keep to my end of that promise.. He... well... as I said empty promises. This is one major flaw of his that I cannot tolerate. I know it is hard to hold to the end of the bargain.. but if promises cannot be done... don't promise... it is like giving false hopes. Maybe this fault lies with all the guys in the world.
Think I will stop here for now... really very angry and simply have no words how to put down on this frustration. Will upate soon
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