Thursday, January 27, 2005
A cry for help
Many things occurred during this week. Really screwed up but I shall touch on something about germany first
Went to Heidelburg on Sat which is 22/01/05. OH MAN! It is so so so so different from Mosbach. Finally, it is a city!!! Guess what I went hunting for when I step down to Heidelburg. Mac Donalds!!! I have been craving for this ever since I came here. Ordered a Royal ST set… wasn’t as royal as it seem. The burger is smaller than the usual burgers I ate (Probably I am too used to Burger King’s Whopper), but I do have my favourite drink… MILK SHAKE. Oh boy… ever since Singapore’s Mac Donald’s milk shake disappeared, I went hunting for cheapest milkshake… none beats the way Mac Donald does it. Anyway… it is costly having a meal here.. cost me around 5 Euros just to have a set meal. Gosh… around… $12…. I can have 2 upsize meal in NYP. Ok… Enough of the crap of Mac Donald. Went around the town and everywhere was having sale. Mango up to 80%, Benetton, Body Shop and etc… I was really in the mood for shopping but I need to save up for the next month and a party I planned. Gosh.. REALLY CHEAP. Might head back to Heidelburg next month for the sales. Hee! The main purpose of going Heidelburg was to visit the castle that one of my classmate was talking about. 300+ steps! I was panting by the time I got up there.. but it was really really really beautiful. Probably I have never seen a castle in my real life. The view was spectacular! I must really get back to this castle when I have my camera with me for the next trip. Nelly…. U MUST SEE THIS CASTLE! After which, we headed to a lounge for drinks. (Nothing to talk about dinner. It was nothing great and it is only pizza hut) Not too bad… but all of us end up spending a lot and I sortta regretted going over especially when people did not pay up. GOSH!
Probably many of you guys do not know about this. I always felt lonely when I am out even with close friends. I do not know why.. but this feeling of being “extra” always pops into my mind whenever I am with anyone. Trendy.. u will be shocked after reading this. I may seem to have a lot of friends in NYP, but I do not maintain a close relationship with them. Most of the time I feel like I am being extra or probably the outcast in the group. It has to do with my self-esteem and I definitely know that. I am not as confident of myself as what you all may see. This is one of the reason that I insist on going to Germany. My mind was telling me.. it does not make a difference if I disappear for 6 month, probably no one will notice that too. I ain’t the attention seeker like that slut (The one who bully pinky, Jacelyn). I am me… I always felt that I am a nobody…. Probably till now.
Ever since I left for Germany, my class seems to be quieter. I could still recall the days of going for coffee and movies after class. It was fun. Apparently, things ain’t the same. According to my informant (Miss Trendy, Tianni), the class seems to be too preoccupied on their own and has gone quieter. Most importantly, the slut is trying to take over. She has been trying to shake her booty (as if she has bigger than mine) and her scrawny body with the guys. I don’t know what the hell she is trying to prove.. but I think the girls in the class are not on her side anymore. BUT… I cannot believe.. that my good friend… el will actually stick to her after my countless reminder that she is interested in his cash and car. Probably he has some charms.. (must give credit) but the fucking problem is the fact is out there. Oh what has gone wrong? Blindness and horny will lead you to nowhere. Hopefully it will lead to just ONS and nothing else. MY GOD! If I am a guy, I will not have ONS with her. Ain’t pretty, no boobs, face slab with thick musk of makeup, and she looks like she is suffering from anorexia. Oh god! Not forgetting.. why is elroy with her too? *about to faint*
Those ain’t the important part. Pinky called me 4 times from Singapore. The first time.. she was on the verge of crying, telling me she is really stressed up. She hung up the phone in less than 2 mins, probably trying hard not to cry in school. The second time.. she rang up telling me everything. I was really shocked. This slut has not been putting effort into the work and worse of all.. getting my good friend, el to her side. Gosh! She even insisted on that Pinky did not do anything and they are not wrong. Pinky was on tears when she was telling me all this. She actually believe in el and to find out he ain’t on her side, makes her feel worse. Probably she didn’t meant to say that she hated me for going germany.. but this thought lingers on my mind ever since. She told me everything about what is going around her and how lonely she is in Singapore. I really really felt horrible. I definitely knows it feels because it has always been in me. Anyway, the project weights 30% and the work they gave ain’t contributing much. The marvelous thing was it has 2 days before dateline. It took me quite a while to calm her down and my promise to help her in whatever I can. But guess again. 5am Singapore time, 10pm germany time, she was bawling. She could not handle the load and she wants to fail this module and give up everything. I swear… if I am in Singapore that moment… el’s face will be beaten to a pulp. I felt really helpless and all I could do was to console her. The last time she called… her state of mind was better and I did the best I could (given no internet and very few information). I guided the way through and we crap through the phone for a while. At least I could hear her getting happier. Really really regret coming to Germany and leaving a mess there. Anyway, the phone bills is going to burst. Think it will be around $150. The total time spent on phone was definitely more than an hour, but it is cheaper than me calling her. $5 per minute. GOD!
The French gal, Ali actually asked me why was I helping. Why can’t Pinky handle her own? Maybe you guys will also find it weird, why am I helping her to do the report especially I am in Germany and it does not concern me at all. Pinky was my first friend in NYP. She has been with me for almost 3 years. Yes, we have our squabbles, differences and everything, but she was my first friend. She approached to me when no one else did. I can still recall the first year in NYP, the first week. It was hell. I was alone. No friends, nothing. I thought this would stick through for the rest of my 3 years till she approached. She made a difference in my path through NYP. And now, she comes crying for aid… there is no way that I am going to reject her. It seems silly to most people, but that is what friends are for. Help each other in need and she definitely need mine.
Ok… it is getting too lengthy, gonna end here. Anyway.. Pinky.. Sorry.
hey winn.... guess what ure not on my mulitply thingy so i cant see ur photos.. u add me k? nellych@hotmail.com ... anyway ah.. i think hor.. i think... i cant go with u eh.. cus one of the friends whom i asked last time.. hes onz.. and he also wanna go backpacking, im torn between choosing free lodging and backpacking..... so.. ya anyway jus wanna let u noe dat i might not be able to travel around wif u ok.. not confirmed.. but jus to let u noe.. -nel
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Went to Heidelburg on Sat which is 22/01/05. OH MAN! It is so so so so different from Mosbach. Finally, it is a city!!! Guess what I went hunting for when I step down to Heidelburg. Mac Donalds!!! I have been craving for this ever since I came here. Ordered a Royal ST set… wasn’t as royal as it seem. The burger is smaller than the usual burgers I ate (Probably I am too used to Burger King’s Whopper), but I do have my favourite drink… MILK SHAKE. Oh boy… ever since Singapore’s Mac Donald’s milk shake disappeared, I went hunting for cheapest milkshake… none beats the way Mac Donald does it. Anyway… it is costly having a meal here.. cost me around 5 Euros just to have a set meal. Gosh… around… $12…. I can have 2 upsize meal in NYP. Ok… Enough of the crap of Mac Donald. Went around the town and everywhere was having sale. Mango up to 80%, Benetton, Body Shop and etc… I was really in the mood for shopping but I need to save up for the next month and a party I planned. Gosh.. REALLY CHEAP. Might head back to Heidelburg next month for the sales. Hee! The main purpose of going Heidelburg was to visit the castle that one of my classmate was talking about. 300+ steps! I was panting by the time I got up there.. but it was really really really beautiful. Probably I have never seen a castle in my real life. The view was spectacular! I must really get back to this castle when I have my camera with me for the next trip. Nelly…. U MUST SEE THIS CASTLE! After which, we headed to a lounge for drinks. (Nothing to talk about dinner. It was nothing great and it is only pizza hut) Not too bad… but all of us end up spending a lot and I sortta regretted going over especially when people did not pay up. GOSH!
Probably many of you guys do not know about this. I always felt lonely when I am out even with close friends. I do not know why.. but this feeling of being “extra” always pops into my mind whenever I am with anyone. Trendy.. u will be shocked after reading this. I may seem to have a lot of friends in NYP, but I do not maintain a close relationship with them. Most of the time I feel like I am being extra or probably the outcast in the group. It has to do with my self-esteem and I definitely know that. I am not as confident of myself as what you all may see. This is one of the reason that I insist on going to Germany. My mind was telling me.. it does not make a difference if I disappear for 6 month, probably no one will notice that too. I ain’t the attention seeker like that slut (The one who bully pinky, Jacelyn). I am me… I always felt that I am a nobody…. Probably till now.
Ever since I left for Germany, my class seems to be quieter. I could still recall the days of going for coffee and movies after class. It was fun. Apparently, things ain’t the same. According to my informant (Miss Trendy, Tianni), the class seems to be too preoccupied on their own and has gone quieter. Most importantly, the slut is trying to take over. She has been trying to shake her booty (as if she has bigger than mine) and her scrawny body with the guys. I don’t know what the hell she is trying to prove.. but I think the girls in the class are not on her side anymore. BUT… I cannot believe.. that my good friend… el will actually stick to her after my countless reminder that she is interested in his cash and car. Probably he has some charms.. (must give credit) but the fucking problem is the fact is out there. Oh what has gone wrong? Blindness and horny will lead you to nowhere. Hopefully it will lead to just ONS and nothing else. MY GOD! If I am a guy, I will not have ONS with her. Ain’t pretty, no boobs, face slab with thick musk of makeup, and she looks like she is suffering from anorexia. Oh god! Not forgetting.. why is elroy with her too? *about to faint*
Those ain’t the important part. Pinky called me 4 times from Singapore. The first time.. she was on the verge of crying, telling me she is really stressed up. She hung up the phone in less than 2 mins, probably trying hard not to cry in school. The second time.. she rang up telling me everything. I was really shocked. This slut has not been putting effort into the work and worse of all.. getting my good friend, el to her side. Gosh! She even insisted on that Pinky did not do anything and they are not wrong. Pinky was on tears when she was telling me all this. She actually believe in el and to find out he ain’t on her side, makes her feel worse. Probably she didn’t meant to say that she hated me for going germany.. but this thought lingers on my mind ever since. She told me everything about what is going around her and how lonely she is in Singapore. I really really felt horrible. I definitely knows it feels because it has always been in me. Anyway, the project weights 30% and the work they gave ain’t contributing much. The marvelous thing was it has 2 days before dateline. It took me quite a while to calm her down and my promise to help her in whatever I can. But guess again. 5am Singapore time, 10pm germany time, she was bawling. She could not handle the load and she wants to fail this module and give up everything. I swear… if I am in Singapore that moment… el’s face will be beaten to a pulp. I felt really helpless and all I could do was to console her. The last time she called… her state of mind was better and I did the best I could (given no internet and very few information). I guided the way through and we crap through the phone for a while. At least I could hear her getting happier. Really really regret coming to Germany and leaving a mess there. Anyway, the phone bills is going to burst. Think it will be around $150. The total time spent on phone was definitely more than an hour, but it is cheaper than me calling her. $5 per minute. GOD!
The French gal, Ali actually asked me why was I helping. Why can’t Pinky handle her own? Maybe you guys will also find it weird, why am I helping her to do the report especially I am in Germany and it does not concern me at all. Pinky was my first friend in NYP. She has been with me for almost 3 years. Yes, we have our squabbles, differences and everything, but she was my first friend. She approached to me when no one else did. I can still recall the first year in NYP, the first week. It was hell. I was alone. No friends, nothing. I thought this would stick through for the rest of my 3 years till she approached. She made a difference in my path through NYP. And now, she comes crying for aid… there is no way that I am going to reject her. It seems silly to most people, but that is what friends are for. Help each other in need and she definitely need mine.
Ok… it is getting too lengthy, gonna end here. Anyway.. Pinky.. Sorry.
hey winn.... guess what ure not on my mulitply thingy so i cant see ur photos.. u add me k? nellych@hotmail.com ... anyway ah.. i think hor.. i think... i cant go with u eh.. cus one of the friends whom i asked last time.. hes onz.. and he also wanna go backpacking, im torn between choosing free lodging and backpacking..... so.. ya anyway jus wanna let u noe dat i might not be able to travel around wif u ok.. not confirmed.. but jus to let u noe.. -nel
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