Monday, October 11, 2004
Disappearing
Everyone around seem to be disappearing...
Many things have happened... Cannot think logically...
Many things have happened... Cannot think logically...
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Give Up
What the fuck man..... Just now I tried to post... all the things just went missing. Ok... re write about it...
Feel like giving everything. School, myself and even this blog. Tired... Really tired...
School.... the on going projects has consumed everyone in my group. Everyone seem to be quarrelling with one another. I finally screamed Pinky. Yah... I know I am bad tempered.. difficult to work with... However... when it comes to project... I always cast all feelings aside. I mean.. work is work.. shouldn't mess with anything. It sounds hard to believe but I always feel that aiming for a better result is the priority and others should be aside. Didn't actually literally screamed infront of her face. Just tell her off. But she doesn't seem to feel that she is at wrong. Yah yah yah... everything is my fault cos I am difficult to work with..... this time... I don't think I am at wrong lor.. Don't know what she is going to do... go around telling pple or what.. I cannot be bothered...
Finally told el about the guilt i have been holding between him, H and L. It did make me feel better... but... now the situation is worse. He told me almost all the stuffs that is going on.. Seriously to say... I am always willing to help out my friends... this time.. I don't really want to know or help. Besides... he and Pinky and probably many others find my logic and theory illogical. So what for I help and seek for my illogical theory. It doesn't make sense at all lor.
Feel like running away from everyone in school except E. Think he is the best... mild-tempered guy + the most optimistic among all of the school mates I seen. Starting to hate what is around me... think my old habits are up again. I cannot stay long with any friends. Tried asking a couple of my friends out.. either MIA or too busy or cannot be bothered. Guess I think I deserve all these. I am basically a lousy, foul tempered friend. So why should they care?
Family life ain't getting good
I WANT TO RUN AWAY !!!!
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Feel like giving everything. School, myself and even this blog. Tired... Really tired...
School.... the on going projects has consumed everyone in my group. Everyone seem to be quarrelling with one another. I finally screamed Pinky. Yah... I know I am bad tempered.. difficult to work with... However... when it comes to project... I always cast all feelings aside. I mean.. work is work.. shouldn't mess with anything. It sounds hard to believe but I always feel that aiming for a better result is the priority and others should be aside. Didn't actually literally screamed infront of her face. Just tell her off. But she doesn't seem to feel that she is at wrong. Yah yah yah... everything is my fault cos I am difficult to work with..... this time... I don't think I am at wrong lor.. Don't know what she is going to do... go around telling pple or what.. I cannot be bothered...
Finally told el about the guilt i have been holding between him, H and L. It did make me feel better... but... now the situation is worse. He told me almost all the stuffs that is going on.. Seriously to say... I am always willing to help out my friends... this time.. I don't really want to know or help. Besides... he and Pinky and probably many others find my logic and theory illogical. So what for I help and seek for my illogical theory. It doesn't make sense at all lor.
Feel like running away from everyone in school except E. Think he is the best... mild-tempered guy + the most optimistic among all of the school mates I seen. Starting to hate what is around me... think my old habits are up again. I cannot stay long with any friends. Tried asking a couple of my friends out.. either MIA or too busy or cannot be bothered. Guess I think I deserve all these. I am basically a lousy, foul tempered friend. So why should they care?
Family life ain't getting good
I WANT TO RUN AWAY !!!!