I am a Heartless Biatch

Found a night job. Finally... Needed those Vitamin M for survival when school reopens. 7pm - 10pm, doing recruitment stuff. Basically I call people up to ask them if they are interested in career talk. Anyone interested? Leave me a message and I will help you arrange.

Was discussing about who and what to give before we leave. Guess what. LEFT 10 DAYS!!! YIPPE!!! The conclusion was.. we have decided to give only cards to those who have never been nice to us and presents to those nicer ones. Sounds crude.. well.. why should we spend so much especially those who don't deserve anything. I still recalled my LO saying it was a nice environment to be.. Frankly speaking.. this place sucks.. The politics is so bad that I can hardly breathe. There are so much backstabbing around.

Attacked by the flu bug. It sucks. My mucus is so greenish that I can hardly stand it. I am breathing through my mouth all day and now.. SORE THROAT. AhhHhhhH!! I must recover before Tuesday. Got to start work.

OH YAH!! Talking about my new job. GUESS WHAT. There is one guy in school that I particularly dislike.. HE IS WORKING IN THAT COMPANY AS ATTACHMENT! Talking about bad luck. I AM REALLY VERY SUAY!! Of all... bump into him. Sigh... Then he still answered the door like.. "hey I remember you". IT SUCKS BIG TIME.

Linkin Park concert was absolutely awesome.. It was worth the $150. I was only a few metres away from the band. Oh Chester.. Oh Mike.. I could see them so clearly. The only minus point was that there was an opening act by a Korean Band whom I don't even know. They were good but I simply cannot hear anything as the mike was too muffled. And the fact they actually keep mentioning Linkin Park and using their name to keep the crowd going sucks.. I mean if you are who you are, why the hell keep using Linkin Park as comparison to yourself. Sucks. Oh yah... not forgetting I was there at 630 and the concert started around 915. It was damn hot and almost suffocating (hey, I know I am short, so don't laugh). However... IT ROCKS TO SEE THEM PERFORM!!! (Minus the crowd singing, cannot really hear Chester at times) Hopefully they will visit Singapore again and I am 100% SURE I WILL GRAB THE MOST EXPENSIVE TICKETS AGAIN!!! Absolutely one of the best concert I ever went!!!

Recalled some stupid fat arse biatches keep stepping on my feet while jumping. Also not forgetting some rude ang mo. They simply have no manners. I seriously don't understand the logic whereby why ang mo should be placed at a higher importance than asians. Fuck It. I pay exactly what you all paid and that doesn't mean that you are entitled to the front. Late means behind. FUCK IT!

The consequence of being too hyper in a rock concert is muscle cramps and dehydration. Today I am practically suffering from muscle cramps from both my arms and legs. To make things worse.... non-stop trembling from muscles.. HATE IT, but I STILL LOVE LINKIN PARK!! If I were to suffer due to such slamming concert... I DON'T MIND AT ALL!!!

Nice memories of the concert... Think my mind has totally been captivate by them. THEY ROCK!!!

Cannot believe tomorrow is the day!!! LINKIN PARK!!! The best part is I am only working half day. Can catch some beauty sleep before looking for them. OH MAN!! I AM GONNA ROCK ALL NIGHT!!!

Found worms in my room. Eerie. Don't know where they came from.. Everytime I put my white cloth on the floor, I will find a small worm on top of it. I have searched high and low for the source, but no avail. Irritating.. Will get the pest buster to fix my house soon.

Last night news was damn entertaining. Singaporeans are always out to make a fool out of themselve. 2 women were fighting with each other due to a pony ride. Can you believe it.. It is simply so disgraceful that such issues will lead to a cat fight.

Ha. In 14 more days, I will be out of this company. I cannot wait to get out as it is definitely not a place for me. With backstabbers, biatches and bastards... Not a place anyone unless those people who are interested in politics in their work place.

Yawnz... Tired

Finally transferred all my previous blogs to the blogspot here. However.. I lost quite an amount of blog... Sigh.. No choice... I did not back up..

I must be mentally sick in the brain. Forever placing myself into shits that I cannot handle. Don't understand why. And my bluntness is slowly catching up and torturing the people around me. I seriously don't know.. Some people prefer me being blunt, some don't. For me... I cannot be bothered in figuring people's mind when I cannot handle my inner demons. I can see that one of my collegue is slowly beginning to dislike me... probably all of them dislike me.. Do I really care.. I have no idea.. My mood and mind these days is like.. Cannot be bothered with people's feelings except for mine... Guess I am really very self-centered.

Vitamin M is running really low.. and I am still spending like shit.. AhhHh.. What the hell am I thinking... THIS ISN'T ME!!

Been really really busy for the past few days. As a result, lack of sleep and foul-tempered. I seriously do not understand the different treatments between interns and full-time staff. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?? Are interns not human as well? I simply cannot understand what the fuck is wrong with people with a higher authority. Are they really that blind to the extend they cannot see that we, interns are the ones working and not the fucked up bitches and bastards around... Speaking of which, it gets on my nerves that humans are sick in their brains. They rather get verbally abused and make used by some stupid slut; we on the other hand are always helping them but the most fucked up thing is that they treat us like SHIT. Seriously, we basically clear their shit all the times. It really sucks to the core. In fact it is repulsive. AaaHHhhH!! Hate it, hate it, hate it.

Was in deep thoughts last night. Seriously, no clue to what I am going to do after I graduate from poly. My brother has been urging me to get into university, but am I really able to get in? NUS and NTU is definitely out.. I do really want to continue my studies, but it still gets back to the same point. What am I going to do after I graduate again?

Talk to my mei the other day at NYDC. Have the urge to move out once I am more settled down. Both of us intend to live together. HOWEVER... One major problem.. COCKROACHES!!!! What will happen if a cockroach comes flying into our apartment. IT WOULD BE DEADLY!! I am super afraid of it, so is she.. MY GOD!! Must really consider the steps to eliminating those damn creatures before we can actually move out.

Got a lot to type.. but not now.. Perhaps tomorrow I will continue yapping away.

Been lost in direction of what I want... Don't really know what the fuck is going on with me... My rage in me seems to take an upper hand now... Probably I have been swallowing a lot of my troubles to myself. I really envy those who can speak their troubles out with no hesitation. I used to be able to do that to someone.. Everything really seems out of place when he is gone... I know.. I definitely know I am a sore loser.. but.. 2... 2 important people in my life has ceased to exist... How good can it get.... Pessmistic huh..

I remembered a movie saying that man and woman can never always remain as friends... one party will definitely have a liking or crush hidden... I used to agree with that til I met Jasper. Familiar name.. well he is my guai bao bao, my dear, my xiaodi, my everything. Muahaha.. Not everything.. Just someone close.
His Description: 19+, Owes me a Georg Jensen and Bvlgari B Zero Ring, Tall, Above average looking, Tan, Lean, Blushes easily
I met him when I was in school.. We grew close and we do share our stories together.. The weirdest thing is.. no chemistry.. Most girls would have fallen for him. CONFIRM. But seriously.. me.. nothing. Really nothing.. Weird..

Puzzled why am I describing him.. well.. I have the urge to protect him from a biatch. He seems to be bullied by her.. If she really does.. I will KILL her.. Why do good people always get bullied? I know I ain't someone nice.. if god decides to punish me.. I am resigned to fate. But of all, why him? I know I am being over-protective.. but I seriously.. don't think he deserves all these..

Today's lunch was silent.. Probably because I sortta like ignored them yesterday.. Should I apologize?

.... Lost in the Middle ....

Let me just count... It has been 31 days since the attachment. Feelings about it? Mixture of sourness and sweetness.

Let me start with the bitterness:
I am currently working in a call centre. Guess where is it located.. TAMPINES!!! I am living in Jurong and the workplace is in TAMPINES! OH MY GOD!! Sigh..
Next.. CALL CENTRE. GUYS!!! YOU ALL KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH!! Do you think I enjoy calling?? What a world. The more you hate, you will definitely get it..
Lastly... AAAHHHH!!!! The people.. SUXZ! I seem to have a clash with some. BA ZHI XIANG KE! BAD! BAD! BAD! I am going mad..

Sweetness:
The Happiest: LINKIN PARK! LINKIN PARK! LINKIN PARK! Hee. THEY ARE FINALLY HERE!!!! AND..... I AM GOING!! Yippe. I may sound kiddo but I LOVE THEM! hiakz. Best of all... my friend is paying for it... *doesn't have anything in relation with my attachment.. but it is my motivation now!!! Hee hee

Happy: *Two happy thing during attachment*
Found one of my long lost friend. She used to group with me during my miserable days in TP. To ever think she became my supervisor (only for the first week). Things can be so concidental right..
Made some new friends... Pretty nice people to be with around... The only exception.. They are much much much younger than me... still... once a while.. different people.. different kinda feeling (don't misunderstand... feeling as in friends). Hee Hee

Miss him. Though.. almost close to 2 years. Have not found anyone similar to him.. My brother has been urging me to get a boyfriend as well. He is FINALLY ATTACHED!!! That is why he has been sortta PESTERING me to get hitched. Sigh....