I am a Heartless Biatch

Been lost in direction of what I want... Don't really know what the fuck is going on with me... My rage in me seems to take an upper hand now... Probably I have been swallowing a lot of my troubles to myself. I really envy those who can speak their troubles out with no hesitation. I used to be able to do that to someone.. Everything really seems out of place when he is gone... I know.. I definitely know I am a sore loser.. but.. 2... 2 important people in my life has ceased to exist... How good can it get.... Pessmistic huh..

I remembered a movie saying that man and woman can never always remain as friends... one party will definitely have a liking or crush hidden... I used to agree with that til I met Jasper. Familiar name.. well he is my guai bao bao, my dear, my xiaodi, my everything. Muahaha.. Not everything.. Just someone close.
His Description: 19+, Owes me a Georg Jensen and Bvlgari B Zero Ring, Tall, Above average looking, Tan, Lean, Blushes easily
I met him when I was in school.. We grew close and we do share our stories together.. The weirdest thing is.. no chemistry.. Most girls would have fallen for him. CONFIRM. But seriously.. me.. nothing. Really nothing.. Weird..

Puzzled why am I describing him.. well.. I have the urge to protect him from a biatch. He seems to be bullied by her.. If she really does.. I will KILL her.. Why do good people always get bullied? I know I ain't someone nice.. if god decides to punish me.. I am resigned to fate. But of all, why him? I know I am being over-protective.. but I seriously.. don't think he deserves all these..

Today's lunch was silent.. Probably because I sortta like ignored them yesterday.. Should I apologize?

.... Lost in the Middle ....


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