I am a Heartless Biatch

Busy Busy Busy. Was really busy for the past few days. Saturday was the worst. Took 100+ pictures for my dad. OH MY GOD. Was standing, aiming, adjusting and taking pictures for my dad for almost the entire afternoon. Tiring job. Now I understand the hardship of being a photographer. But still I want my own camera. Hopefully my dad will be nice enough to buy me the new digital camera from olympus. *Prayz*

Took a picture with my.... dear (Ahahaha. He ain't my boyfriend, but one of my good friend) By the way, this chap... I enjoy teasing him and going out with him. He is like ... sort of good company and don't know for what reason, dote on him a lot.

Sob a bit over the weekend. Was bloody thinking of that mother-fucker. Have been giving him many names, but still the same.. have not forgotten about certain things. Sometime I really wonder. How long will it be for me to actually forget.

Sigh... It seems that my mood is really getting onto me. Been really moody and hot-tempered these days. To make matter worse... menses cramp is killing me. Sort of like.. spoke a little louder than usual and one flares up. As if she never flares up on us as well. Sick of myself and sick of everything. Sometimes.. I really wonder... Am I always fated to be the clown of everyone? TO MOST WHO DO NOT KNOW. I HATE TO BE THE CLOWN! NEITHER AM I UR PUPPET FOR YOUR MANIPULATION!!!

Been doing flash and flash. Really hate it.. but I don't have a choice. My assignments require it and what to do!!!

The story of a ring. A girl once wore this ring when someone dear to her left. She told herself never to remove this ring unless she can find someone similar. She has worn this ring for like... many years. The guy did came back, but not to her. The ring still remains on her hand till this day.

Cannot believe it. I came out of TP, out of IT, guess what. I am stuck with IT for the next 9 weeks. The best part is... I AM DOING IT FROM 8:30am to 5.30pm. THIS IS WORSE THAN MY LAB SESSIONS LAST TIME. OH MY GOD!!

Realised guys cannot be trusted these days. Really lost faith in them ever since.. well here goes. My friend has a 4 year relationship with this guy, and now she gets dumped. WTF!!!! Guess again!! During these 4 years she was being abused. Being strangled & beaten. TO HELL WITH GUYS!!!! I cannot imagine guys being that beastly and I can never imagine the pain she was going through and now this guy DUMPED HER. Well, guess it is also good for her, just that she cannot get over it. After what she had said, I am starting to wonder if I should be a les. I mean... being a les has it beneficial though.... But guess... I cannot... cos I still cannot get over that bastard. His birthday is coming soon... and seriously I wonder how he is. Really miss him very bad, but ain't gonna do anything about it. My pride holds me well. I must be strong.

I really miss those guys from IBRC. Though we only stuck with each other for just 9 weeks, we really grew strong. Not only that, we actually bonded during the BBQ session... Wish time could just go back. Took some pictures too. Hee hee, will upload it soon.

Quit the job. Felt relaxed, but will be vexed when vitamin M starts running dry.

Surprised that my webby was missing for a few days? Well, my TEP friends knew about the website and wanted to read about it.... so hide it :P Anyway, it is up again.

I AM LOSING MY MIND~!!!!!! Been facing the computer all day long and I am going blind!!! Anyway, posted to another place. E-learning zone. WHAT THE FUCK. Everyone in here is so whiney! Complain and complain. Fuck, they are making me worse. Already so miserable, now getting worse. Then found a lot of ah gua in my new stopover. So whiney. Wondering why guys these days so whiney! Sigh.... Worse of all... my computer is facing outside. Anyone who just walk by can see whatever I am doing.

Working environment getting sucky. Will be quitting soon.