Wednesday, June 18, 2003
A rush... to cry...
Found myself getting more and more restless. Not only that more moody and bad-tempered. Think I am going mad.
Started visiting the chat channels and found myself actually starting to talk. Maybe you guys don't know, I don't really enjoy talking to strangers. Most of the time, I must see my mood. I can be really a weirdo. Anyway, he ask me quite a good question. Am I looking for friends or soulmate? To me, I can never answer that question. I define friends as someone I can run to when I am sad and someone I can share anything under the sky.. and so far, sadly to say, none around me matches that. Therefore I told him I had no friends. He said that I ain't looking for friends, but soulmates. Can anyone justify this query?
Miss him more and more. Don't really know why. It seems that everyday is getting worse and I beginning to lose myself. Tried burying myself with work and school. Doesn't really did much help. Actually, he is always online. Just that my pride stop me from being friends with him. To me, pride is very important and he actually tore my pride down. I still cannot forgive him for that. *Really have a rush to cry*
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Started visiting the chat channels and found myself actually starting to talk. Maybe you guys don't know, I don't really enjoy talking to strangers. Most of the time, I must see my mood. I can be really a weirdo. Anyway, he ask me quite a good question. Am I looking for friends or soulmate? To me, I can never answer that question. I define friends as someone I can run to when I am sad and someone I can share anything under the sky.. and so far, sadly to say, none around me matches that. Therefore I told him I had no friends. He said that I ain't looking for friends, but soulmates. Can anyone justify this query?
Miss him more and more. Don't really know why. It seems that everyday is getting worse and I beginning to lose myself. Tried burying myself with work and school. Doesn't really did much help. Actually, he is always online. Just that my pride stop me from being friends with him. To me, pride is very important and he actually tore my pride down. I still cannot forgive him for that. *Really have a rush to cry*
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