I am a Heartless Biatch

Recurring Dream. Actually nightmare. Something which I fear a lot. Is about my family. In it, my mum was being abused and I clearly remember holding on a plank and hitting the person who abused her. Is that a wake up call that certain things gonna happen in my life? I remembered every single detail of the dream and the best part, I was dead before I woke up. Life is such a mess. I look back what has happened in the past few years. I realised that actually... I have not really really been happy? As previously mentioned, past should be past. One should look ahead. But how many of us has actually done that? I always tell myself to forget the unhappiness but everytime certain shit happen.. I cannot help but recall everything. One very good example is me dropping out of TP. I blame a lot on myself. It was one grave mistake! Luckily I am blessed into having a second chance. As one of my friend mentioned before, Shit Happens, Life goes on.

Actually today has been a bad day for me. Certain things happen. Got a big shock. Might need to make certain decisions and changes in my life again. Really wanted to cry and wished that idiot actually was by my side. However got to face the reality, he is out of my life. Tough... Cos he was the only one so far I felt like crying to.

Received a call yesterday.. one of my ex-classmate is getting married. Happy for her. Wonder if I would actually have mine. Sigh....

Oh yah. Changed the layout and added the comments section. Sorry Nelly, stole your idea. Too lazy to learn asp for the comments section


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