I am a Heartless Biatch

November till now... I have not been updating this webby for the longest period of time... Perhaps once a while when I just wanna escape from reality or emotions perked up to the max...

Lots of things happened.... Sometimes I just wonder if I made the right move... I have been switching jobs all over and everytime I change... it gets worse.... I wonder how long will I last in this job of time... It can be so tiring at times I just want to give up....

I think I have bottled up too much.... Just felt extremely depressed and the urge to cry was so strong.... Where can I find that person I can speak freely to...

How many years.... I guess since 1998... Almost 12 years and I have not gotten one bloody fucking idiot. Why am I such a moron... It is so clearly stated that nothing good will come out of it and yet I would rather wait and HOPE that things will change... Perhaps someone was really right... I am such a turn-off to men that I only pin on the one that I liked for years...

Why am I in such a state...

Cried... certain things solved...

Woke up... have to let it go.. after so many years of being unwanted...

It is always one-sided anyway....

One year plus... I even wonder if anyone reads this.... Uncle used to read here to get updated with what is going around with me... now...

I am still a confused person despite all these years....